Third times a charm...

So one of my greatest friends that I have known over half my life found her way to my blog last night.  She dropped me a message and mentioned that she knew that I had a newborn since I haven't blogged since her birth.  To be honest- my brain hadn't even registered that fact until someone else brought it to my attention.  I figured today was the best mommy day possible to attempt an entry.  My two oldest are sick, my hubby is sick...so that means it just me and my sweet baby Lyza hanging out together.

Motherhood the third time around has been such a different experience.  I don't know if its because I know that this is my last go around, because I have the experience of parenting other children or just because I am older (so much older) and dare I say wiser?  I think back to my parenting style with my first and I get the biggest laugh thinking about it.  I really thought that I could control EVERYTHING and I tried really damn hard too.  I kept the log of how much she ate, when she ate, when she slept, when she sneezed...the whole tamale.  I was so focused on trying to control everything that I lost perspective and I didn't have fun with it.  I also dealt with A LOT of post pardom depression and it took about a year for me to get my wits about me again.

In the 18 months between the birth of Sophie and the conception of Duncan I had two really devastating miscarriages and I was really struggling with my weight.  I ended up getting pregnant with Duncan in March and I was in shock that I was actually pregnant because I felt AWESOME!  I never got sick, never gained weight, I had energy the whole time.  It was by far my easiest pregnancy.  I have blogged about the birth trauma that I experienced with his delivery so I wont rehash that.

So anyway- I have LOVED being a mommy to this little one.  I love that I stay home full time.  I love that I get to nurse on demand.  I love everything about this little gal of mine.  I am enjoying every laugh, every smile, every tender heart warming moment with her.  Its so wonderful to feel complete with my family unit.  I feel like now that we have her here we can move onto a different chapter of our lives.  No more pregnancies to plan around.  We can focus on raising the three wonderful chitlins we have been blessed with and start making plans for our future.  Now how to convince Josh we need a bigger house....